Back in the day, I had every reason in the world why I should binge eat or binge drink. I felt so sorry for myself – like the world and it’s people were out to get me. Happily, I don’t think that way at all anymore. Today, I know myself to be quite lucky, no matter what.
When I woke up this morning, I had a text from my landlord that we didn’t have water. While driving to the store to buy some, I mused over how much it sucked not to have water, particularly when I had to dress up to go out tonight. But then I stopped myself. There are people in this world who never have running water in their homes – people who couldn’t even imagine the luxuries I take for granted. Aren’t I lucky?
Next, I headed out to the mechanic to pick up my car, only to find that the bill was HUGE. Gulp. “This sucks”, I told myself. How come my car always need such expensive work?
But then I stopped myself. There are many people in this world who don’t have jobs and couldn’t manage to pay this bill. I do have a solid job and though it won’t be all that easy, I will be able to pay the bill – and still have a roof over my head and food on the table and enough money for gas. Aren’t I lucky?
The day went on from there — yes, I need another root canal. No, the landlord has no idea when the water will be turned on again.
But one thing’s for sure, if you put all the world’s problems into a bowl, I would pray to pick mine out. I am lucky indeed.
The truth is – I have nothing to eat or drink about. I am truly blessed. This is a complete change in my thinking, brought on by the 12 Steps and telling myself the truth about my life.