Working around food has actually been harder than I expected. I’m pretty surprised, and kind of disappointed. Everything with food had felt so perfect for so long – this really is unexpected.
I work long days, in and around the kitchen and notice a fair amount of inadvertent food going into my mouth — a few french fries, soup, the mis-fired steak…And there’s a big vat of my absolute favorite chocolate chip mint ice cream right in front of me.
Also, the staff eats meals together. My shifts are long enough that they incorporate lunch and dinner. And it’s free. I’ve been living on such a tight budget since I quit my last job – anything free seems incredibly inviting.
Prior to this job, my current way of eating was strong and served me perfectly for quite some time. My rhythm’s just off. It’s just not working. Food feels a little out of control.
Because, let’s face it – by nature, I’m a food addict. Food will always be much more intriguing to me than the normal eater. If I don’t nip this in the bud, I’m going to be miserable.
As I said in an earlier post, even though I’m running around constantly, I’m clearly not burning calories. My pants are getting tighter. I’m feeling uncomfortably full. I’m never really hungry anymore.
I’m not happy. Time to jump back on board with my ‘normal’ eating, which makes me very, very happy.
P.S. I may not be thrilled with my food consumption BUT I’m still loving my job. Woo Hoo